We are poor people with golden teeth. The money that they give us pays for the fillings with which we cover up the rot. It’s more than what politicians have done for our village, leaving it out there to decay. As long as farmers are harvesting, nobody has reason to complain. “Feed Me” the political campaigns seem to say, giving large speeches that take in all the grain. Every harvester holds that grid in front of them, a long mouth of smiling teeth, plowing through the fields, reaping riches off our bodies. We watch companies taking over these fields, farmers getting poorer and poorer. Our village, however, is haunted by one incident specifically, an overflowing garbage dump.
The depot is a giant hole in the ground, erected on the top of a hill nearby, which supposedly would bring profits to the region of which we have seen none. There were structural concerns as well, considering the question of outlets for the rain and what would happen to the ground, if any of the rubbish or even toxins spread. The company was given permits anyway, dissuading politicians that any negative effects would occur from this giant hole that they were digging, the grave of our livelihood. The stench it casts over our settlements reminds us of the winds of freedom.
Every time a politician makes a concession, hundreds of poverty stricken citizens loose their minds. It’s like angels earning their wings. As the stench of garbage spread across the landscape those of us who could moved to more fruitful places, while those who had no money stayed. We became peasants, instead of farmers. My brother and I earned even less than we used to. The village pub became our unemployment office. And as the local dentist went out of business, our wounds began to rot. Every day became a reminder of what we did not have, the agency over our life that was lost to the economic situation. The stench that was our freedom became less bearable over time.
That is when Dimitri began to visit our unemployment office, looking for workers willing to make some money. He began by asking my brother Igor, if he knew anyone willing to work for an honest wage. All he had to do is offer seven Euros more per hour than the farming companies. Who knows how much more money he made on our poverty and our ruins. In a world run by capitalism his offer seemed like socialism, another way to make some cash.
Dimitri was intimidating in his benevolence. The broad build of his body revealed to us a muscular man, who knew how to pull weights. His expensive suit demonstrated to us the wealth he had accumulated through hard work. “If you work for me,” he emphasized, “and you do an honest job, I will guarantee you that you will make a good living. Other people will make you labor endlessly for nothing. I know those types of employers and despise them because I have worked for them. I am like you, you see?” At that point he would lean back, let the height of his body unfold, towering at a distance, mustering our bodies in order to conclude, “I am offering you an honest job. You will get the money immediately, at the end of each shift. We will put it directly in your hands, no taxes paid, no questions asked. Does that sound good?” His bright gray eyes looked at us with a piercing lightness that plunged into the depth of our souls. It was as if the question he was asking was not a question but an imperative. So you might surmise that we said yes.
Now, I am sitting here, on the run and afraid for my life, because I told on him. It really was good money that his men gave us. And all he needed were some lumberjacks to help him set up his business. What we did not know, we would learn from the people he employed first, who taught us. They provided us the permits for what we were doing. They paid off the forester. And the forester made sure that we could work in peace, because the money he received increased his quality of life. It was not clear until later that what we were doing was illegal.
We took advantage of the situation. The yearly climate conferences governments visit still have not created a unified legal code to deal with illegal deforestation on a global level. There is no international consensus on how to deal with people interrupting the rhythm of reforestation. And it’s not as if we were dealing with cocaine or endangered animals, that is obvious smack. What we are dealing with is the wood your furniture is made of. What we are dealing with is a resource becoming rare, a resource you really need, a business opportunity. We learned a lot about this on our way to work. A pick-up truck would pick us up and haul us over and out of boredom we would listen to reports on the radio and talk about what we were doing. One third of the world’s wood is provided by people like us, taking their axes to the oxygen factories that allow us to breathe, a deindustrialization of another kind. It was liberating to do this work, spend our times in the fresh air, far away from the stench we were living in, far away from the garbage dump.
Igor, my brother, still had to close the window before we could eat dinner at home, so we could smell the goodness of what we were eating instead of the rubbish outside. Our stomachs were like bottomless pits of hunger, due to poverty at first, then due to hard labor. We figured, as the big bosses of companies were only thinking of themselves and succeeding, why shouldn’t we? Obviously, they were getting something right. Obviously, they were making money. Why shouldn’t we do the same? Our wealth was a riot against a world that had left us for dead, in the stench of their disposals. And so we started to purchase our first fillings, grinning at the world with golden teeth. This rebellion, however, was not made out to last forever…
II.
“Look at that wood block on the stove. Like us it is raw, until it is carved out and furnished, its edges smoothed out. And then, when its education is finished, it is set free into the world with strings attached so it can move. Will Pinocchio ever be a real boy?”
It was the day it would not stop raining. The creeks already had started smelling like shit. Then, as the day proceeded, everything else went to hell. Dimitri punched Igor until his face resembled a giant gap. Until all of the money he owed him dropped to the floor in gold, left him toothless, a dog without bite.
You can’t sell giant logs of wood behind your bosses back without anyone finding out. These structures of salesmenship are more rigid than the usual ones. The swollen clump of meat tied to the chair was moaning. I went out the door to get a breathe of air, when Dimitri was finished. There was a tree stump in the front rotting from the inside out. I wanted to rip it out and leave Dimitri toothless, but did not have the muscle for that. That’s when I decided to tell on him to a journalist.
“I hope you know that I did not want to do that,” Dimitri said, “I did not have choice.” I nodded and said I understood. When you break the law, you have to make the law. Otherwise who will there be to enforce your interests? In a world run by egotism, egotism is the law. Greed is good and you have to make sure you are better than the rest. Dimitri nodded, then took mercy on my brother, cracked his neck, and asked me to help him haul Igor into my car. We’re responsible for our family, after all.
As I drove back to the village, the stench that had built up over the years became unbearable. The streets, flooded with rain, started clogging the gears of my car. That is when I realized that garbage was flowing downhill and the streets were filled with sludge from our uphill dump, sludge that buried our houses. The weather we were enduring had finally set catastrophe into motion.
All the money my brother and I had accumulated over the years now was buried alongside our house. A box locked inside a box locked inside a mess that had finally come downhill after all these years of protest.
I opened the passenger door to the corpse of my brother, dragging his body into the river before me, until the sludge finally subsumed the hole that once had been his face.
III.
Maybe Dimitri was right. Maybe we all are puppets, unable to move without the strings attached to us.
When I fled from Romania this was definitely the case. I had lost my regular income, my village, my support network. I had lost everything I thought I could build upon. And now that I have cut my social ties, I needed to learn how to walk again, find new strings I could hold onto. The journalist that I ratted Dimitri out to helped me escape and acclimate to my new environment. For Dimitri, on the other hand, nothing has changed. The police still respect him for the honest citizen that he is.
No respect for me, though. Finding a home in another country, I had to start anew. I had to learn the language, acquire permits for my stay, find an apartment, find a job, start from the bottom as an outsider, as a peasant, start from the place I started from before. Honest work is what they call it, yet the wages are not so honest, considering what we do for society. But it is enough for now to furnish the walls of my apartment and live a life. Sometimes when my fingers glide over the furniture I bought, the smooth and cheaply acquired wood, I think of my old job and how happy it made me to have something I could live off of. Has the documentary that I contributed to, really changed the world? The loopholes of legality that made this story possible still exist. The mob still feeds these loopholes with sugar and sweets, slowly eroding the jawline of our possibilities, until the stink out of our mouths, our way of life, becomes unbearable.
You would think of corruption as something clandestine, something people are afraid to come into the light about. Yet light is the greatest shadow corruption stands in. There is no secret hiding in the dark. Corruption is a beautiful living room with a TV set and a sofa, at which your family sits in the evening. It is that which puts dinner on the table. It is the images of forest fires on the telly, New York and Portland covered in orange smog that leaves you breathless in its beauty. It’s something you can’t believe is happening. It’s the comfort of your home.
Daniel Schulz (he/him) is a U.S.-German author, academic, factory worker, and Pushcart Nominee for 2022, known for his publications in journals such as Fragmented Voices, Word Vomit, A Thin Slice of Anxitety, Dipity, Flora Fiction, the catalog Get Rid of Meaning (Walther König 2022), and his editorial debut Kathy Acker in Seattle (Misfit Lit 2020). His chapbook Welfare State and No End to Abuse will be published by Book Room Poetry at the end of 2023. IG: @danielschulzpoet